LOVE is a big thing

I'M LOOSING IT !ii know ...:'( ...

2009-09-27T20:53:00.005+08:00

ii'm lasy to blog .

ii'm tired ,disappointed & whatever !

not gona talk ...

so some picture will do :

ps : ii miss you & ii love you

when ?

smiles ...

2009-09-22T23:59:00.004+08:00

sylvia is a friend of family (: ...vote for her in singapore idol (: ...hee ..

okay ,ii'm soo promoting her ...

btw ,mama's the one who recorded this ....& the venue is at my aunt's place ....hee ...she followed us for raya ...so yeah ..this is the song that she's maybe gona sing on next singapore idol ...(: ..enjoy !

PS : ii miss you & ii love you sayang ...

those times ..

2009-09-12T22:08:00.005+08:00

today is the girl in red's birthday ((: ...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NUR SHAHIRAH !!

gave her a present already ..in advance ...(: ...

& tmr ,is this badot love's birthday !!!

at last !

hahahah ...

gave him his present tooo ...also in advance ...(: ..

see the small boy in spec ?

his name is haris ...

he's a sweet boy !

syg dier !

the only person missing in this pic is indah ...

indah ,nur & haris are special to me ...

ii always wanted younger siblings ...& there they are ...((: ...

my little peaches ...ii love them to the core ...

thats all ii have to say ...

xoxo ..

ps : ii miss & love you badot ...

i'm like soo old ): .

2009-09-01T17:04:00.002+08:00

ayg !!ii'm 18 !! ayg ,biler nak 18 ?*joking*

heheh ..

lagy 12 day is going to be your turn to turn old !hahah ..

ii had a lovely time last night with your super loving family ..

cant wait for saturday !!!

go out with your family again ,go geylang ..insyaallah ..

ii love you ayg ..

ii miss you badot love ...

muackz ...

you make me feel soo lost

2009-08-25T20:46:00.004+08:00

no one understand what ii feel ...

ii have alot to say ,but ii guess ii'll just keep it to myself ..

our blog is dead ,ii know ...alot has happen ...but no time to blog bout it .

exams fever for shaf & me .

till then ..

toodles loves !

ii miss you

memorable day !(: .

2009-08-01T10:07:00.000+08:00

yesterday was awesome ..
me ,shafiran & kiat lee went to pastamania lot 1 ...whee~
thank you kiat lee for the treat !
it was suppose to be my treat ...but then kiat lee insist to pay ...
hahah ...
THANK YOU SOO MUCH KIAT LEE !

after pastamania ,we went to lot 1 roof garden ...
chill for ahwile then went our different ways ..
kiat lee bus-ed home ...
ii and shafiran train-ed home ...

we spent time for ahwile at admirilty ..
had fun !

ii want some more of ytd can ?
hahah ...

&& ii LOVE you soo much badots love !
ii miss you ...

huggies&kisses !imy !

130808-230709[tears]

2009-07-25T12:03:00.006+08:00

PS : ii'll always love you dear badot love ..
no man can replace you ...
ii'm sorry for making you decide to go this way...
ii'm just not ready for being apart even for ahwile ...
takecare ...

ii'll upload our last few pictures together soon after blogger is okay ..

xoxo ...

Fun Times Together With You

2009-06-06T23:40:00.004+08:00

Boo everybody ! It's 11.40 right now. Have nothing to do. While waiting for my darling,HUDA, i update our blog. Last friday 5.6.09, i ended school early. I ended at 12pm. It was supposed to end at 5pm but our lesson was cancel ! So my friends and I headed to amk to have our lunch at kfc. While waiting for HUDA to come, i ordered my meal. 2 chicken meal. Hungry like fuck sia !! haha. Just i was about to eat, ma'am gua sampai lah. Potong stim nak makan. Just ate a few of fries je ! Haiya ! haha.. I asked her to go kfc. But she didnt know how to. Wow suprisingly she dunno how to go to the kfc. She nver been to kfc in amk before. I was like what the hell . U dunno how to go here. Nvm . Sayang punye psal. Gua fetch beb! haha. Quickly fetch her at amk interchange there. I was rushing to fetch her coz i wanna go to masjid to sembahyang. I ask her to walk faster. I know she was tired but i have to force her coz i wanna go masjid later. Hmm.. when da ampai kfc, i introduce her to my friends. IZZAT,WAWA,ZAH & SYAFIE. I quickly eat my chicken and told my ma'am to eat the rest. After that i head to masjid to fulfil my sembahyang jumaat ! Alhamdulilah. Dapat hbiskan my sembahyang jumaat . AMIN!

After that headed to amk library with my ma'am,wawa,syafie & izzat. Izzat was damn funny. Suke nah buat cerite !! haha COMEDIAN guy! haha. Syafie was funny too! suke merepek2 with me ! haha. At library, I did my e-quiz with izzat. Ask wawa to help us. She done the quiz at home already. My BABY HUDA was left alone. No one layan her. She angry and felt weird. I force her to tell me what's wrong but she refuses to tell me. Pakse her like hell . Was damn angry with her keeping her feelings again. HMM.. She told me at last. haha. RUpenyer she was ........ That why she angry. haha. CUTE BABYBOO!

After that i headed to Admiltry with ma'am.. She bought mc chicken meal and bought for me mcflurry . Sayang dier !! AHAHZ. We headed to a special place! haha. gerek siol! i had fun!! She also had fun!! Together we had fun spending our time together. :):) smiling *

We tOOk alot of pictures. Here's the picture ! Look down!

I love her very much! She all i have ! muacks to HUDA ! MIss u syg !

Untrue friend

2009-05-31T16:13:00.004+08:00

Problems,Liars,Fucker Friend and Dirty Secret.
Im Fie.
Wow ! Cool arh kawan2 huda!! *clap hand *
Azan????
Who is he??
Took my gf photograph ehk??
Wah !! no respect for me ?
Cool arh... destroying my relationship??? That wat u want azan??
Huda nyer classmate smua one heart one soul ehk pasal huda and azan??
cool..
hiding from me??
Huda, Huda , Huda .....

Ni aku Fie !

i fought with her. i found out something. something that she kept frm me..
why she kept something frm me when she really love me??
that really need an answer..
why u did this to me? what is ur intention ? huh?
why u change? why? u testing my patient huda? u really wanna know how bad i am izit? im bad !! very bad .
One more mistake the game is over ! over ! your dream will be demolish.
i wont fight bcoz of a girl .
org melayu kate, kental !
nama jatuh.
i have respect for ppl who attached.
u should encourage ur friend who is attached not encourage them to breakup with their loves one. ni ke kawan sejati. kawan yg baik? huh?
ni kawan menjahamkan !!!
bukan kwan.., tu binatang !!
takde perasaan untuk org lain.. binatang pun ade juge perasaan untuk org lain..

ehk2 sape2 nak huda , jumpe aku dulu.. baru gentleman.. tapi lau korg ade otak, korg takkan nak huda sebab dier attached. cube la org lain buat gitu at someone that u love. org lain amek gambar matair ko smua. ape kau buat? rembat pe? haha.

So huda, what gonna happen next? huh?
i love u very much huda ! u the one that i need in life. the one that my parent love.
u dont have to worry. for sure my parent will accept you. i gave u all my love. ur my first property that i really love ! ape lagi yg tak cukup? u tell me? ape lagi yg kurang?
hmmm..
that all i wanna say.
to huda friends :
Dont be angry or what. I'm sorry if it hurt u guys. U know how it feel when someone u love keep something frm u and pakat with their classmate. How u feel? u tell me? So i hope u guys will encourage her to be someone that can succeed in life and teach all the good things. Encourage her with her relationship not asking her to break. Baru boleh digelarkan sahabat yg berguna.

TO : azan,
aku tahu huda lawa semua. What ur motive amek picture matair aku? kau nak dia? cube kau pikir pakai ur brain sikit. Cube aku buat gitu pat matair kau, ape kau rase? ade cara tak buat mcam tu? takdekan.. So at least respect arh org yg attached. ade ramai perempuan pat skola, asal matair aku siak? kecoh2.. Ok ku harap korg smua paham arh ok.. dun let it be a karma for u guys. nanti baru korg tahu..

tears ..

2009-05-30T17:00:00.003+08:00

ii was frustrated with myself & ii start to get angry ..
ii'm starting on my LLA project ..ii have no idea what to do ..but at least ii have the intro right ..
ask help from bf ,but he dont know what the hell ii'm gg through & we fought ...

ii cried coz of him ,ii cried coz ii'm wasting his time & ii cried coz ii dont know what to do ..
he gives me ideas ,but its not relevant ..& ii appreciate it of his effort ..end up ,we fought coz of what ii msg him ,bla bla bla ..he breaks my heart over & over again ..& ii cried ..again ..

after we hang up ,ii called emika ,clear my throat & try to talk as normal as possible ..after getting some idea ,from someone who's on the same page as me ,ii calm down ,relaxed & start on my LLA ..

he's not the bad guy ,ii am ..ii msg him nonscence things ,like : are we drifting away or smth ..
its because that is how ii feel in my relationship ..
yes ,ii was suppose to mit him ytd ,but idk why ii was too tired & lazy to get out after sch so ii stayed home ...
& again yes today ii was suppose to mit him again ,but he expects me to go over to his place ..while ii cant ..
& yes ii miss his family awhole lot !but ii dont think ii can concentrate if ii come over to his place ..
ii'm the one who puts too much pressure on him ..
ii'm the one who always make him unhappy ..
ii'm the one who always in wrong ..
ii'm the one who always talk nonscence ..
ii'm the one who starts all the fights/arguments ..
ii'm a disaster for him ,): ..

ii'm too down to say anything else ..
idk what ii'm suppose to feel ..

ily..imy ..

ii'm soo stress ..family ,r'ship & sch ...
nobody know what ii'm gg through ...
)': ..

boolala !

2009-05-30T10:09:00.006+08:00

bbyjeps befor hair extentions

bbyjeps after hair extentions(no difference -.-'')

okay ,ii'm stuck at home for today as ii'm doing my LLA project ..ii want to go out for today ,but LLA date line ends this comming monday/tuesday ..help ?gosh !idk what to do ..

emika asked me&bf out to sentosa today with wan chai ..but ,ii didnt go as my boifey will be having soccer tonight at 12 at ecp ..soo ..ii'll be doing my paintings at home & the other thing is ,well ..ii have noo idea ...

as for school ytd ,ii'm joining BL for cca ...hahahah ...ii ,nabelle ,maya & emika & whole other bunch of my classmate joined ..initially ,mr han ask afew of us only ,but most of my classmate interested to join ,so jolly well they join ..(: ..CPT oi !gahaha ...
after peq lesson ,ii went to cafe 1 to wait for my 5 yrs bff atiqa ...sit down with rinnie study this ,study that ...explain this ,eplain that ,then came atiqa ..munch munch munch !then time for me to go home ..((: ..took bus 31 to interchange then 969 to admirilty ..(: ...

at home ,
ii wanted to cook ,as my grandma is not at home ,but once ii saw my bed ,
*tada*
instead of cooking for myself ,ii went stright to bed ...booo !hahah ..

bored bored bored !

hmm ..my elder sister will be expecting a baby girl ..ii cant wait for the baby to be born ..insyaallah ..hee ..4 more mnth till the baby is born ..whee ~ .cant wait :D ..once the baby arrive ,then there's a reason for me to stay at home ..or else ,ii'll always find a reason not to go home soo early ...

ps :ayg ,imy&ilysm ...

bored !

2009-05-28T18:05:00.003+08:00

hello to my hunny-bunnys .(:

ii went home early today as ii have PO1 phase test ...& damn !when mr eng ask me to choose qns from 1 to 20 ,ii choose my fav num ,9 & bella choose num 2 ...the most irritating part is when ii know how to answer bella's qns & bella know how to answer mine ,while we dont know how to answer our own qns ...haiix ..but so far our practical no water leakage & ii think ,ii & bella did great ..we can communicae well & the both of us make a good team ...(: ..haa ...

ii was suppose to mit boifey today ,but he already had plans with berd ...so ii'm left alone for maybe a looonnnggg moment ...): ..but neh ,its okay ..ii'll do smth to keep me busy & not worry much about him ..haiix ...oh well ,ii met bf ytd so ,it didnt bother me that much ...

ii'm tired ,idk why ..maybe bcoz of SW ytd ...aiyoyo ..hmm ..

nothing more to say ...

bye hunny-bunnys ..

cheers !(:

p.s :

boifey ,ii miss you & ii love you ..

gurlfriends ,ii miss you guys damn much !mit & hang out soon ..

riyana ,ii miss you ...biler ko nk jums aku ?

farrah rocher ,we hang out soon okay ?

sec mates ,you guys have been missed too ..

(: ..

busy BUSY busy

2009-05-25T22:28:00.006+08:00

lately ,ii & boifey busy2 ..with school ofcoz ..notime for this ,no time for that ..so yeap ..BUSY ...

alot has happen ,fights ,laughter & etc ..stress hidop aku ...

hmm ..boifey have cca today ,he must be dead tired ..cian ayg ..muackz ...but end up ,ii'm alone2 ...buhuhu ..

hmm ..last wk thurs ii went to watch night at the museum 2 ..it was okay ..ii prefer the 1st one ...

& like omg !tmr ii have two phase test !!!

but ,ii'm kind of confident ii can make it ,coz ii've been practicing alot in lessons ..(; .

there's nothing much happen in sch ,the usuals ...

thats all ii have to say ...

boifey ,please post smth ...(: ..

ii miss you busuk ...

ii love you honey ..

hope to see you sooooon ); ....

rainy evening ..

2009-05-15T16:11:00.003+08:00

hello(:

hmm ..ii have nothing much to say ..the usuals ,miss my boyfriend ,miss my girlfriends+riyana(a' go-go) & of coz my mama ..school was okay ..only had 2 lesson evt & peq ..had lunch with girlfriend ,iqa ..then stright away went home ..hmm ..nothing much ..

boyfriend is always busy these days ..& once again ii'm lonely ..we barely talk on the phone like we use to ..

its so hard to understand his situation right now ..its like ii'm always free & he's always busy ..its making me crazy & bored most of the time ..& sometime we even fought about this ..hmm ...

things must change ..or maybe in other words ,ii must change ..but ITS SO HARD ..ii'm used to being clingy with my boyfriend ..

ii'm getting more & more insecure ..

hmm ...

oh ,whatever ..just let it be ..

we love each other alot ,no secrets between us & we trust each other ,thats the only thing that matters ..(: ..right ?

ps : ii love you honeyboo ..

missing you soo much ..

make time for me soon ..

GIRLFRIENDS ! iqa ,dayah & fiqah ...

2009-05-13T20:11:00.003+08:00

okay ,muke aku burok dlm nie ..(old pic)

BABES !

ii miss you guys soo much ...

ii feel sooo left out ...hahahah ...

jumpe2 soon ..insyaallah ...

huggies sayangs !!

love

2009-05-13T18:48:00.004+08:00

hello :)

ii'm old & new in this blog thingy & its been long ii didnt blog & etc .

okay ,here it goes .

today ,is our 9 mnth together ..was very excited about it ..once again ii'm in love .hee :D

but today my dear dear boyfriend is busy with school work ,so ii'm left alone ,that's why ii'm blogging ..sad eyy ...

hmm ...at school just now was okay ..tired & sleepy as usual ..& just now ii have to draw a heat exchanger RIG ..like OMG !stress !!punye lah susah !hahahah ..but okay lah ,with the help of classmate & teacher ,so far okay ..they are such a great helper ..& in between classes ii msg2 with my dear dear boyfriend ,& as usual ,he's busy & replied late ..

ii was trying soo hard to be understanding this days ,but its hard to do ..end up ii get angry/furious & start to call him angrily & etc ...(rolling my eyes)...ask him this ,asking him that ...

ii do wonder ,with attitude like this ,he & ii can last till this very moment ..he sure is a tough boy ..hee ..lately ,he's been making me angry do one mistake after another ..ii'm very angry at that moment ..but its okay ..ii dont know why that ii cant be mad at him for long ..

the laugh ,the tears ,the BIG fights ,small stupid little arguments ,everything is worth it ..

ayg ,thank you for being there for me in thick & thin ..you catch me when ii fall ..you love me for who ii am ..ii hope this last ...

ii love you with all my heart ..

& once again ,

HAPPY 9 MONTH ANNIVERSARY AYG !

ps : riyana syg ,thank you for your wishes ..

RIYANA !!!!

2009-05-11T08:36:00.002+08:00

ii wana say thank you to riyana(a' go-go) for making our blog soo nice & sweet .

hee ...

at last ii can blog again with a compelete blog .hahah .

to my good ,best & crazy friend ,riyana

thankz alot again !huggies !

first post.

2009-05-10T21:46:00.000+08:00

new blog done for the both of you. hope you like it. (: